New video release: My Brazos Fellows Story

Head over to the Brazos Fellows website to check out a brand-new video series, “My Brazos Fellows Story.” In these short videos, several alumni from each year of the fellowship so far (2018-2021) share some of what their time as a fellow meant. These stories are a great window into the experience of Brazos Fellows, and an invitation to join us in a future cohort!

Here’s a compilation video that brings in stories from each year:

“Closer to me than I am to myself”

On Saturday, August 28, the Church celebrates the feast of St. Augustine, Bishop of Hippo and teacher of the Christian faith. One of my favorite lines from Augustine’s writings comes in Book 3 of the Confessions, where he remembers how he wandered from God as a young man: “You were more inward to me than my most inward part,” or, as sometimes paraphrased, “you were closer to me than I am to myself.” (The Latin is tu autem eras interior intimo meo.)

It’s a remarkable statement. Who could be closer to me than me? What is more intimate to me than my own self? The answer, according to Augustine, is God. The One who made us, the One who is beyond us, also dwells within us. God is more inward to you than your very self.

It’s fascinating to read these words some sixteen hundred years later, at a time when there is great confusion about the self. We cheer “authenticity” and encourage each other to “be your true self,” presumably at any cost. We celebrate those who “find themselves” by breaking free from the constraints of culture, family, tradition, and even biology. We (mis)represent ourselves through social media, carefully curating a digital self that others will like. Much of our energy, much of our attention, is given to our own self-construction; as W.H. Auden put it, “each of us prays to an image of his image of himself.”

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The Standard on Brazos Fellows

The Standard, “an independent conservative student newspaper” is an exciting new journalistic endeavor at Baylor University. In the December issue, Cara Hoekstra writes up a helpful, well-rounded introduction to Brazos Fellows:

So what’s next? What are your plans after graduation? Questions like these have always provoked fear and anxiety among college students, but the challenges of COVID have made them even more urgent. This is where fellowships and other post-graduation opportunities can help transform young people into better human beings.

To provide an inside look at Brazos Fellows, Cara interviewed our Director, Paul Gutacker, as well as a member of the 2020-2021 cohort, Tiffany Owens:

For current fellow Tiffany Owens, Brazos Fellows has been a valuable time to discern vocation and calling. Tiffany was at first drawn to the idea of taking the time to study theology and to think about some of the bigger questions in life. Over the course of the program, though, she has found its most valuable aspects to be the spiritual direction and life coaching, as well as the intentional cultivation of spiritual practices. The interweaving of prayer and communal worship with everyday life has helped her reorient life toward larger existential questions and the development of virtue. According to Tiffany, Brazos Fellows can be summed up as “nine-months to pause to re-examine your assumptions, to re-examine your beliefs.” It is also a time to discover great Christian examples and mentors and to grow in a multitude of ways: spiritually, intellectually, and morally.

Head over to The Standard to read the whole thing–and be sure to check out the other articles in the December issue.

Podcast: Lifelong Habits of Discipleship

How do you form lifelong habits of discipleship? Brazos Fellows Director Paul Gutacker joins Oliver Hersey on the Transforming Discipleship podcast for a conversation about the fellowship–and bigger questions about discipleship, forming communities of Christian practice, what makes a good mentor, and more:

“There’s nothing magical about it. There’s nothing formulaic about it. Let’s commit to prayer together. Let’s share life together.”

Be sure to check out Transforming Discipleship, hosted on SmallGroups.com for more great conversations about discipleship ministry in the church today.